Friday, 9 June 2017

A Narrow Escape

It was a small gathering, about fifteen, at the old woman's tiny home in the shady neighbourhood. It seemed as though her house was a bit lighter than those situated nearby. The one-room bungalow's creamy yellow paint glowed in the summer sunset light whilst the other buildings sat in shadow. Of all the dwellings in the area, it didn't come as a shock that it was the target.

The purpose of the meeting had barely been stated when the attack started. A loud smash outside immediately alerted the group and one cautious peek at the front window was met with the exploding force of a baseball bat as the window shattered into a million shards on the floor allowing a man with elaborate tattoos on both arms to burst through with the weapon.

I wasn't even sure why I had come. All I can remember is that everyone who came to the meeting had one thing in common. We were all believers.

The person nearest to me was a girl with shoulder-length brown hair and deep brown eyes. She grabbed my arm and began to pull me toward the back door of the house. Upon reaching the exit I noticed that the other members of our group were frantically leaping out the other now broken windows in an attempt to escape the onslaught. The old woman was left behind.

We all drove here in separate vehicles and parked along both sides of the street. The girl pointed toward her black SUV while two of the attackers were slashing the tires and beating the 4x4 with bats. She hung her head and I noticed that they had not yet touched my car. As we tried to sprint toward the silver civic, the enemies reached it first and continued their abuse.

In my mind I thought all hope was lost as my friend and I began to run in the opposite direction of the chaos and soon discovered that we were being followed. The man with the tattooed arms was pursuing us as we scampered through the streets.

We were welcomed into an Indian bazaar filled with extravagant statues of all kinds lining the walls and shops as far as the eye could see glowing with brightly coloured pieces of clothing and trinkets of every kind. Our enemy had given up the chase for now.

Upon exiting the bazaar I spotted my car ahead and it looked intact. As we approached I noticed many scratches and it was clear that the mob had begun their destruction but then were distracted as the damage was minimal. I carefully opened the driver's side door and noticed that the car was stuffed with the remains of slashed tires. The girl and I worked quickly to throw out the debris and then drove off into the night...

Dreams often leave me with many questions. Like why did I dream that and what was it about? What happened to the old woman? Why was I involved in the meeting at her house? Who was the brown-haired brown-eyed girl with me? I don't reckon I'll ever find out but it all makes for a decent story starter!

Thursday, 25 May 2017

Mere Christianity

If I thought I had a decent grasp on what I claim to believe as a Christian, this book by C.S. Lewis made me realize that I have a lot left to learn.

As I read it, one of the thoughts that kept plaguing my mind was if everyone I witnessed to read this book, maybe they would be more interested in becoming a Christian.

One of my co-workers asked me if I could lend him this book last year and after he finished reading it he said, "It actually made a lot of sense!"

I'm not sure if he made any life-altering decisions after reading Mere Christianity, but I know that he would have at least been forced to think more deeply about life.

Personally I think that everyone should read this book as it offers wise perspective on what life is about from the point of view of someone who was an atheist - turned - Christian.

While I would love to nicely summarize the entire book here in this post, I cannot. Even to choose a few quotes to comment on is a great challenge that I barely managed:

"No man knows how bad he is till he has tried very hard to be good."
From the time I was a small child I've tried to be as good as I can be but I am still not good. Though some people may think that I am good, that's by their own standards. God's standard of what is good is also holy and perfect. I cannot reach His standard on my own no matter how hard I try. Every truly good thing that I do is done with God's help because only He is truly good. I am faced every day with temptations that remind me that I am inherently bad and desperately in need of God's help to do what is right. (Luke 18:19)

"On the one hand, God's demand for perfection need not discourage you in the least in your present attempts to be good, or even in your present failures. Each time you fall He will pick you up again. And He knows perfectly well that your own efforts are never going to bring you anywhere near perfection. On the other hand, you must realise from the outset that the goal towards which He is beginning to guide you is absolute perfection; and no power in the whole universe, except you yourself, can prevent Him from taking you to that goal."
I have to remember that the Christian life is hard because I am fighting against myself to follow God. When things are difficult, I need to remember that it is because God is taking me on a journey to perfection where I need trials to challenge me to be more patient, more loving, and to have more faith. (Philippians 1:6)

"If you are a nice person - if virtue comes easily to you - beware! Much is expected from those to whom much is given...But if you are a poor creature - poisoned by a wretched upbringing in some house full of vulgar jealousies and senseless quarrels - saddled, by no choice of your own, with some loathsome sexual perversion - nagged day in and day out by an inferiority complex that makes you snap at your best friends - do not despair. He knows all about it. You are one of the poor whom He blessed."
I used to think that it was merely a simple choice to be nice or not. Even that everyone ought to be nice and that it wasn't necessarily easier for some than others. I have been dreadfully wrong. Though I am thankful that being nice has come easily to me, I am ashamed to admit that I have judged those who struggle with it; thinking that they were just nasty people by choice. Oh Lord help me to see that I need You more as I wrestle with my pride and fight against the temptation to judge those who find being nice difficult. Only You know what is going on in our hearts. (Luke 5:31-32)

If anyone would like to read this book, and I highly recommend that you do, here is a link to a pdf copy: http://www.samizdat.qc.ca/vc/pdfs/MereChristianity_CSL.pdf


Wednesday, 10 May 2017

Just Five Minutes

That is all it would take for me to keep my bedroom perfectly clean and organized.

I remember back when I was in high school and a guy from church was helping a friend and I figure out how to lead the christian club at school. Along with giving us some great Bible study and prayer time tips, he also offered us some advice regarding organization. He said, "Just five minutes is all it takes to keep your room clean. At the end of each day, set a timer for five minutes and spend it tidying up and I promise that your room will never be messy."

Before I go on a road trip with some friends, I need to clean my room. Not that it is terribly dirty or anything...I would call it strategically cluttered. Meaning that there are small piles of clutter around the room in places that are not in my way (this is key). Like there is a pile of stuff on the side of the bed I don't sleep on, books are in piles on the floor in front of my bookshelf, random papers are in a pile on my dresser with jewellery strewn atop and beneath, a grocery bag holding some candy is chillin in a corner on the floor, dirty clothes occupy another corner, I also definitely need to vacuum and dust everything. Though I can function in it, I definitely do not enjoy the current state of my room and would prefer to come home to a clean space.

Had I been following the "just five minutes" rule, cleaning my room would not be such a daunting task. Since I ran into the guy who gave me this advice at work today, I recalled his words of wisdom and now wish I had listened and took action to make it a habit back in high school to keep my room clean.

Now perhaps I will be motivated to put this into practice after I spend an hour cleaning and realize how much less exhausting "just five minutes" is. :)

Sunday, 30 April 2017

Beg by Shane and Shane

So here I am one more day of not loving Him the way He asks,
In fact my heart is singing praises to the things that make me feel alright

So I'm sinking fast like a stone heart should and on the way down
I've done what I could to try and try to turn this stone to flesh

I'm haunted by my God who has the right to ask me
What by the nature of my rebellion I cannot give

So I beg for You to move, I beg for You to move
I beg for You to break through

So here I am got my deeds for the day and all my cute little words of how I am saved
Am I saved?

Could I love You with my mouth like a church kid should?
At the end of the day my words get burned as wood
Oh but I was good

I'm haunted by my God who has the right to ask me
What by the nature of my rebellion I cannot give

So I beg for You to move, I beg for You to move
I beg for You to break through

These songs are noise in Your ears, a clanging drum
You want my love

Thursday, 20 April 2017

Marathoner

It had been on my bucket list to run a full marathon (42.2km) by the time I turned 25, and I officially crossed it off on April 14th at approximately 11:01am for the 11th annual Look Gopher Attack Marathon.

So I guess you could call me a marathoner, but I probably won't run that distance again...at least not any time soon.

The main problem was that I did not train properly for this race, having only run about 12km as my longest run over the three months I was hoping to utilize prior to, and it became very clear to me during the last 15 or so km of the marathon that I should have taken the time to prepare or at least last-minute switched to run the half-marathon instead (as my mother earnestly prompted me to do).

Alas, it was too late. With only 15km left, there was no way I was quitting now. I was in for the long haul. You don't just run for three hours and give up with one more hour to go!

To describe what my body was telling me along the seemingly endless final 10000 meters would be extremely difficult because my mind was focused on pressing on rather than trying to discern what new muscles I was discovering as my feet continued to pound the pavement. All I knew was that I couldn't stop running because I had attempted to walk for a couple of seconds and quickly realized it was a poor choice by the way my legs instantly grew heavy and I had to work super hard to will them to run again.

My goal was to make it to church in time for the 11:30am Good Friday service, and I did. There is no mistaking the spiritual lessons I have learned from this experience.

Sin drags you down and makes you weary. It tears you away from the One who can give you the strength to carry on in life. Many times in my life I have been foolish. Giving in to my sin instead of trusting in the Lord enough to do His will instead of my own.

In my mind I know the truth, but I often live as though I do not believe it. Like knowing that I need to train hard to run a marathon race well, but not following through with it. Both have consequences of suffering.

In life, failing to fight the battle against sin leaves me numb, frustrated, confused, tired, and anxious while failing to train properly for a marathon leaves me very sore, tired, and weak.

There have been times that I doubted my faith just as there were times during the marathon that I thought I might not finish.

Friends, I have discovered that there is great reward and blessing in living God's way even though it is very hard at times as it is against our human nature. I have to consistently remind myself of His truth and press on in faith, knowing that His ways are perfect and are for my good.

May many say with Paul someday, "I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith." - 2 Timothy 4:7