Oh life...it's crazy how the littlest changes in plans could have such a huge impact on someone's life. I thought I had this reading break planned out (sure there were some things that I was questioning in my head but for the most part I was at peace with the plan) and suddenly, plans had to change and it shook my inner world a little bit. The spiritual authorities in my life were challenging my decision and my ego did not like that. I felt angry and bitter inside...why can't I be trusted? I don't see the danger in the current plan, what could be wrong with it? I feel like I've failed before I've even started...and I want to rebel...what is going on inside of me?......Why am I fighting against those who know and care about me the most, who love me and want the best for me? Is four days really that big of a deal? Maybe...maybe not...all I know is that I must recognize that I am only 19 and there is much wisdom to learn from those who have lived longer than me and God's Word says that, "A fool despises his father’s instruction, but whoever heeds reproof is prudent." - Proverbs 15:5 So I will put aside my selfish pride and young know-it-all attitude and follow the Lord. :) And when I think about it...it's always better to be safe than sorry.
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