To Bike?

Oh Daniel...I just love my little brother, he really knows how to make a person feel wanted :)
Today just before supper Daniel asked me if I would go on a bike ride with him, this is how our conversation went...

Daniel: "Jessica! Wanna go on a bike ride?"

Myself: "Umm Daniel, I don't have a bike."

Daniel: "You can ride this one!"

(Daniel points to a big silver bike hanging from the garage ceiling)

Myself: "I don't have a bike Daniel."

Daniel: "Can you get this one down?"

Myself: "I forgot how to ride a bike."

(Mom quickly informs Daniel that people don't ever forget how to ride a bike)

Daniel: "Jess, get the bike down!"

(I try, really I do but it's just too tricky for me)

Myself: "I can't get it Daniel, it's too heavy, plus the tires are flat."

Daniel: "Daddy! We need your strong muscles to work out here!"

(Dad eventually comes and gets the bike down, I'm not all that enthused about it)

Myself: "Thank you Daddy..."

Daniel: "Here's the pump! Pump up the tires so you can ride it!"

(I pump up both tires...)

Daniel: "Now I'll find you a helmet!"

(He does...)

So we went on a short bike ride before supper. How could I resist? He practically left me with no excuses, plus he's really cute and I love my little brother :)

Hiding

Oh why can't we hide our sin? God knows all, everything about us, all the time (Psalm 139).

I am so glad that people don't know what is going on inside me.

People don't react the way that God does.

His love and acceptance is unconditional.

But you never know how people are going to react to your sin.

Being a people pleaser makes life hard.

I have a really hard time communicating my desires.

I am always afraid that the people that I desire things from are going to shut me down or worse...disappiont me when I expect them to care.

So I hide.

Pretend that everything is ok.

Stay in my comfort zone because it's safe.

I crave freedom.

The freedom to express my true feelings and desires.

Lord help me.

Because only You know (Psalm 139).