It's weird how you can feel lonely among many people.
It's times like this when I know I need God...Not that I don't need Him all the time. It just becomes a more prominent need when times like this come along. When I need a friend to talk with, but most of my best friends are in faraway places and my other best friends are busy.
It's weird to think that God is not only my Father, but also my friend. Someone who will listen to anything I say and somehow offer comfort. I love God for a lot of reasons, but I must say that His love is absolutely amazing. He cares for me in ways that no one else can.
But I realize that the barrier between myself and God is me. My selfishness, my sin.
It is because of me that I don't come to my Father as often as I should. I feel shame because of my sin, or prideful because I think I'm fine on my own. Why should God listen to me anyways? I have no rights. Yet, His Word tells me that He loves me and wants me to come to Him. John 3:16, Psalm 86:15.
Loneliness also comes when I try to do things alone. Which is often. I somehow think that I can always do things by my own strength, a bad habit to fall into. Guess what? It never works! Well sometimes it seems to, but something is always wrong. I am either unsatisfied with my efforts, exhausted, upset, or a combination of all three.
I lack a lifestyle of dependence upon God for everything, and an attitude of thankfulness towards Him. I need Him to change me, and I need to seek Him. By choosing to spend time with my Lord I can grow in my relationship with Him, which will help me to become more like Him as I grow in my knowledge of Him.
Oh loneliness...or is it just laziness?
It's times like this when I know I need God...Not that I don't need Him all the time. It just becomes a more prominent need when times like this come along. When I need a friend to talk with, but most of my best friends are in faraway places and my other best friends are busy.
It's weird to think that God is not only my Father, but also my friend. Someone who will listen to anything I say and somehow offer comfort. I love God for a lot of reasons, but I must say that His love is absolutely amazing. He cares for me in ways that no one else can.
But I realize that the barrier between myself and God is me. My selfishness, my sin.
It is because of me that I don't come to my Father as often as I should. I feel shame because of my sin, or prideful because I think I'm fine on my own. Why should God listen to me anyways? I have no rights. Yet, His Word tells me that He loves me and wants me to come to Him. John 3:16, Psalm 86:15.
Loneliness also comes when I try to do things alone. Which is often. I somehow think that I can always do things by my own strength, a bad habit to fall into. Guess what? It never works! Well sometimes it seems to, but something is always wrong. I am either unsatisfied with my efforts, exhausted, upset, or a combination of all three.
I lack a lifestyle of dependence upon God for everything, and an attitude of thankfulness towards Him. I need Him to change me, and I need to seek Him. By choosing to spend time with my Lord I can grow in my relationship with Him, which will help me to become more like Him as I grow in my knowledge of Him.
Oh loneliness...or is it just laziness?
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